fuckit

damn, i give up on writing about my trip in detail! GGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRROAR! I know 'Bad Nikki! You should quit like that!' Yea, i've heard it all before. Anywho this is what's new with me: I might be quitting subway...THANK GOD! I applied for a job as the Sheriffs Office. I hope i get one of the 3 spots open! I've been hella sick, basically ever since i got nback from Chicago. No i am not pregnant! like some would think, or curse upon me. It's not gonna happen!! I love life, and I love my sailor! <3<3<3 he's my everything. He's my #1 reason for living. Kinda strange tho. I would have never thought that i would go so far into a relationship with someone as great as him. I love him with all my heart. I can't wait until he gets to come home for a couple of weeks! I'll be so estatic. There's days when i want to jus kick him in the nuts and ask him why did he have to join the navy. but no matter what the situation is, i'm be him 110%! I know that he will always support me and love me as i will to him. This wround with him being gone, is a lot easier, cuz he's been able to call, and write e-mails, as often as he wants. So yea, it's jus like he's back in Billings, but only i'm 'forbidden' to see him. :-( Anywho, i better get goin, so i can do some laundry and some other 'Spring Cleaning.'

Peace!

Nikki

P.S. HOOAH!

The Trip

Well, I'm back from Chicago. It was an interesting trip. For those of you who are wondering, no, he did not ask me to marry him. Hopefully it will happen tho. I can see myself with him. He's a wonderful man to be around. He looked damn fine too when I saw Jon. *Drools* Wow! I woulda fucked him right there in the parking lot if i coulda. I really felt bad for those men and women whose parents or any other family member who did not show up. Anywho, i was pretty sure that it was gonna happen, because of two things:
1- on the invite list, he listed me as his fincaee and not his girlfriend
2- when we were in the business room of my hotel letting him chack his e-mail and what not, he was talkin to a friend and she asked him 'When are you gonna marry Nikki?'

So yea, that got me to thinking. plus along with everyone putting in my head that he was going to ask me and all that other stuff. well i gotta get goin...sorry for this one being short, but i'll write up a more detailed on tonight and post it ASAP!

I'm outtie!

Nikki

HOOAH!

update

Well, i'm back! I wish i had my computer back for the past 1/2 month! i had a lot of things to share. anywho, i'm jus gonna make this short sweet and simple.

Well, this past month, i have yelled, screamed, cried, smiled, laughed, been serious, and living life. I've also learned who my real friends are. Drama has started with Chris again. I love him, but I can't go thru the heart ache again. Plus, i am happier then i have been a while. Jeremiah and I have gotten back into the being friends thing. I realized that I shouldn't give up a good friendship, and he now understands me, and that he's had his chance, and can't have it again. I got my plane ticket to Chicago. I leave thursday. So i won't be able to write. I'm excited to see Jon <3 but I am also scared of flying. I've been told many horrible things about flying (thanx Shaun and Willie!) gosh they totally ruined it for me! BAH! I'll be fine tho!

well i gotta go to go pick up my mother!

Love ya'll! i'll ttyl!

Me

holy hell!

wowo! sorry it's taen me FOREVER to write back...computer was out of commission...it's too late to write everything right now, so i'm gonna go to bed and write it all out for you when i wake up!

Love you all so very much!