Random Thoughts of my mind

Well, here i am sitting at work bored outta my mind. I'm sittin here watching random "Neurotically Yours" cartoons. Can't ya tell how exciting my life is? Well here's an update on my life: IT SUCKS!

Boyfriend update: Bucky is over in Malaysia right now. He got ordered to go over a week early. He left on the 19th which was a teary goodbye for me. Remember how i've said that he asked me to marry him over the phone? Well i told him he had to talk to my dad and then get down on one knee. Do you think actually asked me? I dont think so. I can't believe i trusted him on that part. I don't know what to do with my life anymore. I mean I love him to death, but when i drive 50 miles to see him and he doesn't want to see me, that's kinda tellin me something right there but I don't want to believe it! What makes it even worse is that I had some of my male friends tell me that they would hang out. and thought that it's pretty pathetic that i drove 50 miles jus to see him and he didn't even want to see me give me a hug/kiss or ANYTHING like that! I was crushed. But hell i'm glad i have other people who care about me enough to hang out with me so i didn't waste gas. But he said he might do it IF he comes home for chiristmas. I'm gonna start taking bets that he won't do it.

Old couples: I LOVE THEM! Driving around Hardin and seeing them together is so cute! You can see them walking in the evenings and early mornings, holding hands. You can even see them doing that in the grocery store. What i think is even cuter is when they have a pickup truck and the lady is sitting right next to him! I think it's so adorable! I just hope i can find me someone to love me as long as that.

Gas Prices and Money: I know everyone bitches about this subject, so let me stand on my soap box for a couple of minutes and have my fair share of bitching. This is absolutly rediculous! It's hurting those who have to travel quite a ways to get to their job. Like those who drive from Billings to Hardin and vise versa or from Lodge Grass or Crow. The government does not think about anyone but themselves! They don't care about the 'low income' people. True the natives get paid per-cap and sometimes get commodities and housing is basically free. I'm not trying to pick on them. I know how it's like. I'm a 'rez baby' i was born and raised on the rez. The only thing that we did not have was the per-cap and i don't think we had the free housing. And with my mom working one job, and my dad working 3, we still barely got by. sure my dad was actully working 2 jobs that paid and one was on a volunteering basis. My mom worked for the ambulance and my dad worked for the farmers union and was a fire fighter and he volunteered at the sheriffs office. Which he has been doing since 1991. But I don't know. this goverenment is so fucked up.

Montana's Senetor Conrad Burns: This man should burn in hell! Or we should put him on the front lines of the fires! As a dispatcher for the county, we dispatch out everyone. police ambulance fire crews etc. Anywho, on the 27th or 28th of this month, our dear loving senetor calls fire crews LAZY! OMG! One of the secretaries here, her husband is the county fire chief, and she flipped her lid. I read the article that was printed in the billings gazette about that, and he had no right saying that! They worked their asses off to save homes and towns. I was ashamed of what Burns said. It's not right. These awesome firefighters put their asses on the line to help save ours. I'm sure if he saw a bunch of service men sitting at the airport waiting for their flight, i'm sure Burns wouldn't call them lazy! I bet you he would salute them and tell them what a fine job they're doing! I can't wait for Tester to take over senate! He deserves it! He will support the rual fire fighters and how they halp to protects farmers and ranchers. Burns is just a self centered asshole who blows bush under his desk!

HAHA! I love my lil rants and raves! If i offended anyone in anyway, you have my sincer appology! Well, I think i've said my peace, so i'm going to get going!

Alwayz

Nikki