Am I Really Destined To Be Alone?

I must. I started the new year out with a bang. HAHA! No, not really. I started the New Year off at work. Wow. I'm so cool. NOT! Im kinda confused on some things. Okay, well, when I was with Bucky, I will admit, I cheated on him. True it was a mistake, but deep down I had a feeling he was too. Im sure he won't admit it, but i gotta trust my heart. Well, when him and I pretty much broke up, I was like "Okay, Im free to go to whatever I want to. Im single, I can sleep with who i want when I want!" Well, that's not all true right now. Since breaking up, I have not slept with ONE person! I wish I new why that was. I guess that it's the 'thrill of be caught;' Im not too sure though. Well, the last person I slept with, we were talking about getting together and start dating. He must not have been too serious about that, because from Christmas on, he pretty much has been ignoring me. Anywho, him and I had texted off and on the past couple of weeks, but it's been nothing more than about a few text messages. Today, while I out spending time with my sis Angel, he calls! It was really weird. I mean just out of the blue like that. I almost want to say that it's all a dream, and I'm just imagining things, but it's true! True, it was only for about 4 minutes and 33 seconds, but it's so great to hear from him! There's only a few people in this world that can bring a smile to my face with just a littlest things! He's one of them, and i have a few friends that can do it, and there is another guy. Im not going to talk about him though, because he's sitting a few feet away from me! For now, Im going to go and get back to work.
Loves!
Nik